Friday, November 7, 2008

Going Home Again

Well, I'm heading back to the Chi today, for what could be the next few months.

I don't want to go. I mean, my friends are out here, and I'm scared that if I leave here I'll never come back. I mean, I've somehow got to pull almost $8,000 out my ass by really the end of this month to even have a chance at being back here, and I'm just not seeing how that's gonna happen.

I'm going back to Chicago to get a job, and that's why I'm so afraid. What if I get a really good job that I don't want to leave? I'll have followed the path of so many before me, so many people who went to college and dropped out. I don't want to think of myself as a dropout, not when I love school so much. But that's how I feel. And I don't want to go to any other school than NIU, especially because if I go anywhere else I'll be a full year and a half behind everyone else (since my credits won't transfer). But I don't have a lot of options now.

I'll still be online since the Sidekick has internet, but I won't be posting nearly as much as I was before (and I've been slacking on that, so that's saying something).

I just hope this all works out.

3 comments:

SweetHunniTeah said...

don't go bff!!! :(

Demiera said...

I wish I didn't have to bff!! I just hope I can come back soon!

PhlyyGirl said...

Awwww hun.
I had a lot of friends who had to do that when I was in school, especially when things started getting bad with the economy, but its all in God's plan. Who knows what you'll find when to get back to the Chi?
But if you stay focused and you reallllllyyy wanna go back to NIU, just think of it as a break and you'll be back before you know it.